Today me and Reann watched 4 red kites fly around the house all at the same time.... never seen that many together. I needed to see them today. I hope it was a sign from you but I don’t suppose I’ll ever really know until my time here is done which will be sooner rather than later I hope. This just gets more and more difficult to live with. I miss you so much. I hate that I couldn’t save you. I’m your mum I should’ve been able to save you. I will never forgive myself for not doing enough. I should’ve saved you. Love you to eternity my beautiful boy always have always will xxxxx