Showed Rory your photo this morning and he was grinning from ear to ear saying dad dad dad and kept kissing the screen of my phone. I’m trying so hard to keep your memory alive Nath. It breaks my heart looking at your photo but I’ll keep showing the kids who you were and telling them stories about how much you loved them. Just wish you were here to tell them. That’s your job. All I ever wanted to be was a normal grannie and watch you bring your kids up.... a big happy family unit. The biggest part of that unit is never coming back. How do we live with that ? I love you and miss you so much xxxxxx