The day I lost you is the day I lost myself and as much as I know I will never see you again I will also never see myself. Why Nath ? Why couldn’t you just let me help you ? Jesus Christ I love you so bloody much and saying I miss you doesn’t come close to how I feel. Broken lost empty incomplete confused and disbelieving. I would give my life a million times over for you to come back and be fixed. Anything has to be better than this life without you. Even a big nothingness has to be better than this hell.