It’s strange to me how life can just go on when yours has stopped and mine is broken but then I suppose it has to. I’m trying to live a life without you but it’s hard and I’m still just existing Day to Day because I have to. I would honestly prefer not to be here life is too painful but I couldn’t inflict more pain on the people you left behind than they are already suffering.... so for that reason only I continue to exist. I love you so much son and I miss you more every single day. Time will never heal my pain only my passing will do that xxxxx