Bank holiday Monday almost 2am and I can’t sleep at all ! I’m trying to have positive thoughts and not be so low all of the time.... trying to arrange a holiday for Reann and Darcy.... trying to smile and enjoy what I have... but it just feels so false. I’m not happy and I don’t feel positive.... I feel broken sad and alone with the 1 & 2 & 3 1 & 2 & 3........... I MISS YOU