Off to Weymouth tomorrow for few days and already I’m feeling anxious at the thought of not being able to come to your heaven spot. Reann wanted us to check it tonight to make sure you’re ok whilst we’re gone..... of course it’s ok... it’s a plaque with your name on.... your ashes underneath but it’s not you. You are not you.... you no longer exist only in my heart and mind and memories. But still I feel anxious about leaving you. I miss you so deeply it’s so hard to explain.....