I can hear the music from party in the park.... just as I could hear the music last year as you left and my world shattered. The world kept turning people kept living but my beautiful boy was gone forever and my life went from living to existing because I have to in an instant. I will never get beyond loosing you Nath I will just exist until I take my last breath and my shattered heart beats it’s last beat. I hope you have found perfect peace. I hope you are around us. I hope one day I will hold you again. I don’t just miss you it’s much deeper than that...... I don’t just love you it’s much much more than that. I am proud to be your Muvver I’ve always been proud. My soul is incomplete now you’re gone. Always and forever my boy...........