I’ve tried to force myself in to having a couple of days away from your heaven spot. Not because I hate it but because it does me no good spending hours up there talking to a plaque and crying. I feel so guilty. I’ve not been up since Friday and it’s sunday today. I will be up first thing tomorrow to tidy round after this storm we’re having and I’ll bring fresh flowers. Just because I’ve not been up it doesn’t mean I don’t think of you every second of the day cuz I absolutely do xxxxx