Mental health awareness seems to be going crazy at the moment..... where was the awareness when you needed help ? How much help did my son get even tho you were ‘assessed’ 3 times ? Where were the professionals even tho you attempted suicide 6 weeks before you succeeded ? Nowhere even tho me and Kirstie begged everyone we could think of for help. We tried we talked to you we begged you I told you that you leaving would kill me too...... none of it made a difference. Suicide won. Suicide not only took you from me but your dad too..... how the hell is that fair. I could cope with your dad leaving (sort of) but how the hell do I come to terms with you my beautiful unique son leaving by choice ? I don’t come to terms with it and I never will. I love you and miss you beyond measure xxxxx