Sunday morning. Woke up to Rory shouting at me from his cot that his nappy was wet. Yes my first thought was you as soon as my eyes opened but I didn’t wake up crying. That’s happened a couple of times this week and I know I will be crying by the end of the day but to wake up and not cry straight away is an acheivement. The incredibly sad feeling that lives with me will never leave I know that now but to wake up and not cry is good. It doesn’t take away the fact that I miss and love you cuz I do and always will xxxxx