Almost 2am and I’m sat by the back door listening to the wind thinking of you and still trying to make sense of what’s happened. Obviously I’m failing miserably. I will never make sense of it I will never move on from it and my heart will always be broken. I’m trying to smile more and not feel so dark all the time but I can’t focus on the future without you so it’s just a day at a time. I love you son xxx