Still so windy out so no point coming up to tidy your heaven spot. I’ve got Rory today so won’t be up. I think about you and that day every second and think it’s driving me a bit crazy. I just can’t move on I just can’t. I am damaged for sure. I can’t feel anymore I’m emotionless. I’m broken. I don’t think this kind of broken can be fixed. I miss you. I don’t understand xxxxxxxxxxx