Bright sunny morning this morning. The type of morning where you would already be planning a bbq for later. I don’t know or understand but this miss you stuff and knowing you’re not coming home just gets harder. We are vastly approaching 2 years and it hasn’t got any easier at all. Worse if anything. Honestly I don’t know how I can face a life time of this not a full life time. I miss you. I need all my kids here. I’m empty cuz you are gone. I don’t know this is just so difficult. Too difficult. I love you xxx