Today is the last day of 2017 and I honestly do not want to go into 2018. I feel like I’m leaving you behind in ‘last year’. I don’t want to leave you behind but I can’t end it myself cuz of the guilt my suicide would leave people with. If you come to me in a dream and hold my hand you could take me into the light if that’s what happens. I don’t want to be here anymore xxxxxx