Dec 31st 2017.... the year I lost a quarter of my soul..... the year I have to leave you in son. I am not abandoning you though in my heart I know I let you down. I hope you can see the love you left behind. I’m still waiting for that visit in my dream. I miss you more tonight than ever. Why Nath ? Why ? I love you to eternity and far beyond xxxx stay peaceful my beautiful boy xxxxx