Checked your flowers today they went caught by frost so will be ok for at least one more day. I feel so sad stood up at your heavens place. I talk to you obviously and I cry like I do where ever I am and I beg you to communicate with me. If I know you’re ok and always around then I will endure the rest of my existence here knowing I will see you again. But I don’t know. I don’t feel your presence I don’t smell your smell I don’t really recognise signs like other people say they do. Why ? Why if you’re around can’t I sense it ? Please help me Nath please xxx